July 06, 2009

My Daily Schedule

11 AM: Wake up to the sound of mysterious scrabbling from squirrel that has taken residency in my air conditioner.  (At first I waged a war with said squirrel, but have come to accept it as a symbiotic partner of my air conditioner, eating harmful parasites off the filter.)

11:01 AM: Make and drink large quantity of coffee

11:30: Begin writing daily 2000 word minimum of crappy romance novel

Noon: Carve up and eat honeydew melon, mango, or similar.

12:30: Watch episode of Iron Chef Japan on youtube.  Contemplate whether Iron Chef Chen Kenichi and Saxophonist Bill McHenry were separated at birth.

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1 PM: Back to crappy romance novel.  Surf internet to try to recapture feeling of being young, hip heroine a la Sex and the City.  Get distracted and spend an hour reading Wikipedia entries on Norse gods, chess openings, or similar irrelevant topic

2 PM: Try to figure out origin of weird smell in apartment.

2:30: More coffee, melon

2:45: Go to the park to jump rope before it gets too late and park is overrun by cute children asking if they can "see" my jumprope

3 PM: Do yoga, shower.

4 PM: Squeeze out a few last paragraphs of novel

5 PM: Make a martini.  Unveil "theme ingredient" for dinner (e.g.,  canned corn).  Cook and eat dinner.  Declare myself winner of Battle Canned Corn. 

8 PM: Text Ethan.

9 PM: Blog/ waste time/ watch more Iron Chef

2 AM: Drift off to sleep to the soothing sounds of squirrel in AC.

June 21, 2009

Feasting and Fasting

I'm on the fifth day of the Master Cleanse, where you eat no food but only drink cayenne pepper-maple syrup-lemon juice and do an onerous salt water flush daily.  Crazy perhaps, but it helps undo the damage from all those martinis and Black Iron Horseradish Cheddar Burgers. 

Ethan and I have done this the past few years and I've noticed I get less colds and flus, and that for a while afterward I feel very clean and light.  But I've always stopped at five days before.  This time I plan to do the recommended minimum of ten if I can stand it.  Wish me luck.

I have been having psychotic dreams about food.  Last night I dreamed Ethan was spoonfeeding me curried chicken salad.  I woke up with a sore jaw from grinding my teeth.

This is a fabulous post about lunch at Per Se, one of the most expensive restaurants in New York.

June 19, 2009

Hearing Secret Harmonies

I'm sad.  After about six months of reading, I'm about to crack open the twelfth and final book of Anthony Powell's A Dance to the Music of Time.  The books have gotten better as they went along, not just because I got more into it, but also, I suspect, because the process of writing them must have taught Powell a lot.   He published the first in 1951, and continued to pop out a book every two years or so until the final volume, Hearing Secret Harmonies, appeared in 1975.  They follow the life of Nick Jenkins, a mildly successful British writer, through school, WW2, and the world.

Somebody was telling me about a poem about number theory that contains the line "Twelve is like a chandelier."  

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Twelve is divisible by all the important numbers.  It is also, Ethan points out, the basis for the blues.  There are four seasons of Nick Jenkins's life, each of which is a trilogy.  The first three books are a tiny bit boring, dealing with Nick's schooling and early development.  Summer warms up, as Nick knocks around pre-war London with his best friends Barnby and Moreland.  The series peaks with the WW2 trilogy, which shows the boredom and silliness of Nick's war experience.  The tenth and eleventh book have been delicious, Powell's comic powers at their peak. 

Knowing what you do best and sticking to it is something I admire.  I've been noticing what Powell chooses to leave out of the books.  There is barely any mention of family life, Nick's wife one of the minor characters in the books, the genders and ages of their children barely mentioned. There is a great deal of satire about political machinations in London society, but there's no actual treatment of politics or history.  People die during the war, but there's no mention of the Holocaust, no battle scenes.  

"The author is the protagonist's witness," Donald Westlake once told my husband.  But we're not qualified to testify about everything.  After I got mugged years ago, a fairly extended combat which ended in a draw (he got my purse but I got his bike), the cops took me to the station to look through books of mug shots of black men over 40 and under 5'9".  I gave up after a while, not wanting to ID the wrong person.  Had the mugger been white, I doubt I would have had a problem.

Every time Powell brings in the one Jewish character, Rosie Manasch, he mentions her glittering black eyes, plumpness, and air of being the mistress of a harem.  And the only place where he ever seems out of tune is in the climax to book 11, where the characterization of the villainous Pamela Widmerpool tips over into absurdity, as if he let his misogyny get the better of him just a touch. 

In general, Powell is smart enough to avoid his blind spots.  He knows what he was put on earth to witness and sticks to it: the way mythological imagery guides our lives; the dominance hierarchies of the literary world; society gossip; old hotels; the etymology of family names; the tyranny of narcissism; the lurking iceberg of sex; and the music of time, largely manifested through the entrances and exits of friends from our lives, a tune which is too faint for us to hear when we are young but grows increasingly intense as we age.

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My Dad died while I was reading these books.  Donald Westlake died, too.  He was the one who recommended them to us, a recommendation I took very seriously, since Westlake was probably the best writer I'll ever get to know personally, and since the books were so very different from Westlake's own work.  When a fine pastry chef recommends a barbeque place, you drop everything and go. 

Don's advice about the series was "Start with book four."  

He said that Powell was dangerous for a writer, because you would be tempted to imitate his rambling, semicolon-filled sentences.  He said he loved this description of the Ufford Hotel, from the beginning of book 3, The Acceptance World.  Dig the rhythm, especially of the last sentence.

Not only the battleship grey colour, but also something at once angular and topheavy about the block's configuration as a whole, suggested a large vessel moored in the street.  Even within, at least on the ground floor, the Ufford conveyed some reminder of life at sea, though certainly of no luxuriously equipped liner; at best one of those superannuated schooners of Conrad's novels, perhaps decorated years before as a rich man's yacht, now tarnished by the years and reduced to ignoble uses like traffic in tourists, pilgrims, or even illegal immigrants; pervaded -- to borrow an appropriately Conradian mannerism -- with uneasy memories of the strife of men.  That was the feeling the Ufford gave, riding at anchor on the sluggish Bayswater tide.

It was hard to get Westlake to talk about what you wanted him to talk about.  After a few glasses of wine, Ethan and I would try to double team him and get him to answer questions about craft, but Don was cagey, and who can blame him.  He wrote over 100 books under various pseudonyms.  I think the more you write the less you like to talk about it.  Anything we needed to know, really, was already there in his books.

A few years ago, my dad sat me down and asked me, sort of formally, "Is there anything you want to know about our family and its history?  I want you to ask me now, while we have the chance."  He said that he wished his own father had given him this same opportunity.

I felt embarrassed because I couldn't think of a single thing to ask.  Now I will have to pick up what I can by rereading and remembering, since he and Don are gone, in Mrs. Erdleigh's words "looking at the sunset towards the west wind, and hearing secret harmonies."

June 08, 2009

My Boxing Career on Youtube, Part 2

Now that somebody posted my 1999 loss to youtube (see previous post), I was finally motivated to transfer the video of my winning bout from VHS.  It's been long enough since I quit boxing that I can watch this without dreaming about getting back in the ring.  It's hard to quit boxing.  Nothing else you ever do will quite compare.

When I fought Gladys Alonso, I was going through a bitter breakup that had police involvement, and I was a live-in math tutor with a family in Park Slope.  Gladys was the wife of a boxing trainer in Coney Island.  She had been boxing only slightly longer than me, and both of us were very excited to face an opponent who was an even match. 

I tried to act mean at the weigh-in and the one time she showed up to Gleason's to train.  This was hard because she seemed so sweet, and being mean is not in my nature.  But if you want to be a fighter you must cultivate your swagger.  The match begins the moment you know who your opponent is.

"You have already defeated all your opponents," said Joseph Jarman when I went to his dojo to meditate a few weeks before the fight.  At the time I hadn't met Ethan and I had no idea Joseph Jarman was a jazz musician.  I found him by Googling "zazen."  He was cool and Yoda-like and very handsome in his aikido robes.

On fight night, when I stood beside the ring waiting for my name to be called, I said a prayer to Shiva.  I told myself, if I can just get to the end of this mantra without being interrupted, I will win the fight.  I also told myself: Don't worry about technique in the beginning, just run straight out to her and start punching wildly.  This was my way to counteract my tendency to choke.

It worked.  I got to the end of the mantra.  I rushed her right after the bell.  Thirty seconds in, I knew I would win the fight.  I was even able to get off some combinations that were a little showy, like a triple left hook!

"Why do white fighters have good left hooks?" I once asked my (black) trainer.

"It's a punch you can throw when you're off balance," he said.   

After this fight, I went on to win the Empire State Games, and then I lost in the first round of the Women's National Golden Gloves in Georgia.  I quit after that, knowing that it would take a ton more work to be a serious competitor on the national level.  And what was the point, really?  According to Joseph Jarman, I had already defeated all my opponents.

The woman I lost to in Georgia was Theresa O'Toole, a professional stuntwoman.  We enjoyed a beer on the motel balcony a few days later -- she looked beautiful in a sparkly pink halter top.  I asked her what kinds of stunts she did.

"All kinds.  Falls, crashes, fires."

"Could you fall from this balcony and be okay?"

She eyed the water in the courtyard below.  "Yeah, I'd just aim for the pool." 

It took a while to convince her not to do it. 

June 06, 2009

My Boxing Career on Youtube, Part 1

"Sarah Deming is bleeding from the nose."

The line comes 20 seconds into the second round of my losing match at Madison Square Garden, which somebody just put online.  We live in an age where all defeats are permanent and publicized. 

It's both horrifying and amusing to watch this now.  Later on in the second round, Gil Clancy jokes that the ref isn't stopping the fight to check on my nose because "he's not a feminist."  The ref does eventually give me a standing eight count, and then they send me over to the doctor, who lets me continue. 

In my defense I will say that this was only my second fight.  My opponent, Patricia Alcivar, was the returning champion, and she was ranked second in the nation at that time.  I think I did pretty well under the circs. 

After the fight, I growled to Patricia's trainer, "I'll see you at the next dance," but we never did fight again.  We sparred several years later, and she was still better than me, although it was closer.  Patricia was a good fighter and a deep person, and I'm glad I faced her. 

Tons of people came out to see me, including my mother and my brother.  When I took that terrifying step through the ropes, it was very important to hear the roar from my cheering section.  I was a little worried about Mom's reaction to seeing me take so many uppercuts, but she said that she could tell by my body language that I was okay. 

Check out how thin I am!  This match was at 119 pounds, a weight that was extremely difficult for me to make.  When I won the Gloves two years later, it was at 125. 

Part two of this clip here.

June 05, 2009

From the Chandogya Upanishad

OM.  In the center of the castle of Brahman, our own body, there is a small shrine in the form of a lotus-flower, and within can be found a small space.  We should find who dwells there, and we should want to know him.

And if anyone asks, "Who is he who dwells in a small shrine in the form of a lotus flower in the center of the castle of Brahman?  Whom should we want to find and to know?" we can answer:

"The little space within the heart is as great as this vast universe.  The heavens and the earth are there, and the sun, and the moon, and the stars; fire and lightning and winds are there; and all that now is and all that is not: for the whole universe is in Him and He dwells within our heart."

May 25, 2009

The Schmerler Tour

Today my husband and I joined our brilliant friend Ben Schmerler for a day of walking

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and eating.

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Ben is a champion of the sport of long distance walking and endurance eating.  When we joined him at 4PM, he had already put in a half dozen miles walking up and down Amsterdam and Columbus Avenues and had a backpack full of cured pork. 

We met at Black Iron Burger where we found it difficult to stop at just one unctuous Iron Horse Burger, cut into thirds, but we reminded each other that we had miles to go and many more delicacies to sample.  A double patty with horseradish cheddar and grilled onions on a soft, toasted sesame bun, this was quite possibly the best burger I've ever had, and set a high bar for the day.  The server told us they order their chuck from New England Meats and grind it fresh daily.  The meat was moist and deliciously fatty, cooked to the perfect medium rare, and required no ketchup.  Superb.  A steal at nine bucks.

Next we went to Rai Rai Ken for a bowl of Ma Po Tofu Ramen.  The grizzled chef there was slightly grumpy about serving one entree to the three of us, but when you are competitive walker-eaters you are not out to make friends.  You are out to walk and eat as much as possible.  This was a great version of the classic, with the perfect amount of heat and a deliciously rich broth that was just the right side of too greasy.  I plan to have another bowl tomorrow, when I go there to retrieve my sunglasses.

Just down the street, we grabbed a soft serve vanilla ice cream from Chikalicious.  I've never been a huge soft serve fan, but this was nice, with specks of real vanilla bean.  Nice but nothing to write home about.  I regretted not trying the cupcakes, which were beautiful, but being a walker-eater is a brutal sport.  Choices must be made. 

Next we grabbed some stools in the window at the attractive Macondo, owned by the nice people who brought us Rayuela.  We'd heard raves about the avocado and mezcal smoothie, but this turned out to be a bit watery and disappointing.  Ethan's gin-pineapple-carrot juice cocktail was slightly medicinal.  My muddled corn with sage and aguardiente was the best, perhaps because it was the only cocktail with strong acidity.  The sage was a nice subtle note in this drink, and the corn gave it a good mouthfeel, but my verdict was that these drinks were overly ambitious. 

Not so the cocktails at Mayahuel, the new tequila-focused bar by the Death and Company people, named after the Mayan fertility goddess.  I was immediately seduced by the beautiful space, which had the cool, dusty smell I associate with my grandmother's basement.  Ben got an oddly salty but otherwise yummy pomegranite sour.  My Cabeza Pequena was a smooth and potent blend of tequila, amaro, grapefruit-infused Punt y Mes, and Maraschino.  But the best drink was Ethan's choice, a highball with lapsang souchong-infused blanco tequila, lime, agave nectar, and tamarindo soda.  It was scrumptious.  We wandered out into the sunshine, in a mildly altered state.

The gentlemen agreed when I suggested buying some cigars to smoke while we walked over the Williamsburg Bridge, since nothing encourages gluttony like a nice Cuban. 

Upon our arrival in Williamsburg, we tucked into some small plates at Dressler, one of my very favorite restaurants of all time.  I told Ben that the older I get the more I care about service over food.  I can cook food that tastes good in my own home; if I choose to go out, I want to be around beautiful, warm people.  This is always the case at Dressler, largely thanks to the gracious host Paul.  We loved the sticky BBQ ribs, lighter-than-air gnocchi with fresh morels, and baby octopus, all washed down with an earthy sparkling rose from the Loire.

Sad to say, the last stop was a bit of an anti-climax.  Service-wise, it was certainly a let-down, our drinks arriving only after we were nearly finished eating, and, while the crust on the lauded Motorino pizza was well-structured and tasty, the Pugiliese pie came topped with burnt broccolini, whose bitterness overwhelmed all the other ingredients.  Ethan: "I'm not sure I understood what they were going for there.  I would have rather had a slice from Pizzatown." 

Amen, my friend.  But sometimes, in the hard life of a competitive walker-eater, defeat must be endured, if only so that we may survive to walk and eat again.  There will be other pizzas, other afternoons.

May 24, 2009

The Negroni

The Negroni is the cigar of cocktails, one for the gentlemen and the hardened drinkers.  Gary Regan has a nice column about the history of the drink, legendarily created by Count Negroni, who ordered an Americano highball with the bubbly water replaced by gin. 

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CLASSIC NEGRONI


1 ounce gin
1 ounce Campari
1 ounce sweet Vermouth
orange twist

Stir all ingredients very well over ice, until the shaker gets frosted and beaded with condensation.  Strain into an ice-filled rocks glass.  Twist the rind over the drink to express oil.  If you want to be flashy, do this through the flame of a match.

I've always been secretly ashamed that it's hard for me to get down a Negroni.  When I make myself one, I skew it a little sweeter:

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THE BITTER HEART

1 1/2 ounces gin
1 ounce Campari
1/2 ounce Cointreau
1/2 ounce dry oloroso or amontillado sherry (I like Lustau's "Don Nuño")
orange twist

Same method as Negroni. Garnish with a speared kumquat and drink while plotting revenge on everyone who's ever wronged you. 

Like the Martini, the Negroni can also be made with vodka, but public opinion is on the side of gin.   

Details are everything, so keep your vermouth in the frig, buy organic oranges if you can, and pimp your ice.  I use these groovy trays Julie got me in Japan:

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Sur La Table has silicone molds that are great and work well for jello shots, too:
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Last night I made this recipe off the Canton bottle, which isn't a real Negroni at all but much sweeter and more girly. 

CANTON NEGRONI

1 1/2 ounces Canton (a ginger liqueur)
1/2 ounce Campari
1/2 ounce Dry Vermouth
1 1/2 ounces fresh-squeezed orange juice
Orange

Shake very well over ice and strain into a chilled rocks glass with big ice cube(s) in it.  Garnish with an orange twist.


This drink was delicious and only mildly bitter.  Just like me!

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.

I said, "Is it good, friend?"

"It is bitter - bitter," he answered;
"But I like it
"Because it is bitter,
"And because it is my heart."

- Stephen Crane

May 21, 2009

More Auto-Tuned News

More fun with auto-tune from these talented peeps.

LYRICS:
EH: I think this is an ignoramus statement
Umm, I was even a person who thought
You know what, power to Joe the Plumber at that point
SG: Before he went around laying his pipe all over town
EH: Well, Joe the Plumber is not invited
Anywhere around me
EG: Does baby need a tissue?
Thinking about the time the plumber kissed you
Before you caught him creeping with the Shih Tzu
RM: As republicans, the party does seem to be in chaos
RP: They need to change their attitude, attitude
Their attitude, attitude
MG: Ay, tells us what your homeys can do
To make a change
RP: You know, they talk about personal freedoms
They have to believe in it, you know
MG/RM: We know!
RP: To believe in it, you know
MG/RM: We know!
RP: To believe in it, you know
MG/RM: We know, we know, we know you just got to believe
RP: To believe in it, you know
MG/RM: We know!
RP: To believe in it, you know
MG/RM: We know!
RP: To belieeeeeeeeeve! Lieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeve!
MG: You saying Republicans on crack
Are you cozy with the Democrats?
RP: I just don't think that either party
Right now offers a whole lot
MG: You'll see some real change
From the 3rd party at my house
Poppin champagne, bacardi; gettin crunked out
Triple rhymin with Joe Biden
While we Imbibin Hennessy
Come on over--drinks on me, homey
HK: We'll be friends with you
AZ: And bff with you
Main Damies with you
HK: And colleagues with you
AZ: I'll be in your crew
HK: I'll be in yours, too
AZ: Jumpin rope with you
HK: Playin Donkey Kong with you
AZ: Hatchin plans with you
HK/AZ: invade Tajikistan with you
HC: We do not believe either Afghanistan or Pakistan
Can achieve lasting progress
Without the full participation of all of your citizens
Including women and girls
AZ: Having a barbecue
HK: Grilling a goat with you
AZ: Grilling terrorists, too
HK: Getting matching tattoos
HC: The rights of women must be respected and protect--
AZ: --Picking flowers with you
HK: Hot showers with you
AZ: Falling in love with you
HK: Nude at the zoo
AZ/HK: Making memories at the pottery wheel, rubbing clay on you all afternoon
KC: It would be one of the most dramatic
Foreign policy about faces ever
AG: To what do you refer, shawtayee?
KC: A bipartisan bill in Congress would end
The 47-year-old trade freeze with Cuba
AG: Ojalá congreso le gusta esta
KC: It has only spotty support so far
But President Obama's already taken some baby steps
Letting Cuban Americans visit family members
And send them money
But for most of us it's still a place that is
Strictly off limits
AG: Not for this G
I just went there illegally
Speaking of which, will you buy drugs from me
On national TV?
Don't fret--the people think I'm joking
But guess what (what?)?
I've never joked in my life; ooh-wee, shawtayee
KC: The trade embargo made sense a half century ago
AG: That's 50 years
KC: During the Cold War
Fidel Castro took sides with the enemy
But the Soviet Union is long gone
AG: Disbanded:
KC/AG: Long gooooone!
SG: Dick Cheney. Rush Limbaugh or Colin Powell. Who's your damie?
DC: Well, if I had to choose, uh
In terms of being a Republican I'd go with Rush Limbaugh
My take on it was Colin had already left the party
SG: I don't think that actually happened
[awkward silence]
This is an awkward silence;
I guess I'll fill it with ad libs
Oh! Shawty! Yeah
EG: Whoo! Aaaah
KC: Now it's up to Fidel and Raúl Castro
AG: Esos Castros locos. Cuidado
KC: President Obama says he wants to see Democratic reforms
Particularly on human rights and free speech
So congress will be looking for signs of change
After almost 50 years
AG: Ay, that's half a century
KC: U.S. policy will not reverse overnight
Relations remain chilly
But for the 1st time in generations
A thaw is possible
AG: A thaw, but what sort of thaw?
What exactly is thawing?
KC: Very, very, very, very
Very thin ice
AG/KC: Very thin ice, very thin ice, very thin ice

May 19, 2009

The Military Philosophers

I just finished reading this magnificent book, which is book nine in Anthony Powell's twelve-volume A Dance to the Music of Time and concludes the trilogy of novels recounting the narrator's experiences during World War 2.  By book nine, Nick Jenkins has been promoted to major in the British army, and he is in charge of a keeping a motley crew of military attaches from various Allied countries happy. 

What makes his portrait of war so powerful is that Powell focuses not on the grand or heroic but on the quotidian.  In this way, he reminds me of another favorite author of mine, WG Sebald, who talks about the tragedies of WW2 through analyzing the logistics of transporting Jews over the railway or disposing of their shoes. 

Powell is a comic writer, though, and he hones in on the ironic in all its delicious manifestations.  Major Jenkins is a cog in the vast corporate machinery of the British army.  Most of the time he is bored or confused.  There is plenty of death, but it never fails to surprise the reader when it comes.  This is a testament to Powell's genius as an author and to his understanding of the nature of The Kindly Ones.

On women in the army:

Very young, she was one of those girls with a dead white complexion and black hair, the only colouring capable of rising above the boundlessly unbecoming hue of khaki.  Instead of the usual ATS tunic imposed by some higher authority anxious that the Corps should look, if not as masculine as possible, at least as Sapphic, she had managed to provide herself, as some did, with soldier's battledress, paradoxically more adapted to the female figure.  It had to be admitted that occassional intrusion at 'official level' of an attractove woman was something rather different from, more exciting than, the intermittant pretty secretary or waitress of peacetime, perhaps more subtly captivating from a sense that you and she belonged to the same complicated organism, in this case the Army.

On generals:

There could be no doubt, so I was finally forced to decide, that the longer one dealt with them, the more one developed the habit of treating generals like members of the opposite sex; specifically, like ladies no longer young, who therefore deserve extra courtesy and attention; indeed, whose every whim must be given thought.  This was particularly applicable if one were out in the open with a general.

'Come on, sir, you have the last sandwich,' one would say, or 'Sit on my mackintosh, sir, the grass is quite wet.'

And the final scene in the novel, when Nick goes to a huge exhibition center in London to collect the free clothes ("the demobilization suit") given to all British soldiers at the conclusion of the war.  Coming as it does after three ironic novels about the war, this is the perfect, anticlimactic final image:

Rank on rank, as far as the eye could scan, hung flannel trousers and tweed coats, drab mackintoshes and grey suits with a white line running through the material.  If this were not a shop, what was it?  Perhaps the last scene of the play in which one had been performing, set in an outfitter's, where you 'acted' buying the clothes, put them on, then left the theatre to give up the Stage and find something else to do.  Or were those weird unnerving shapes on the coat-hangers anonymous cohorts of that 'exceedingly great army,' who would need no demob suits, but had come to watch the lucky ones?. . .

Was this promise of a better world?  Perhaps one had reached that already and this was a celestial haberdasher's.  The place was not even at all crowded.  Most of the customers, if that was what they ought to be called, looked about forty, demobilization groups taking precedence on points gained by age, length of service, time spent overseas and so on.  We wandered round like men in a dream.